Sunday, May 10, 2009

I am so Lucky

to be the Mommy of one sweet, amazing, beautiful little girl and one sweet, cuddly, adorable baby boy!!

I always knew I wanted to be a Mommy, but I don't think anyone can prepare you for the feelings you develop for your children. It's amazing how full of love your heart can be that very first second you lay eyes on your bundle of joy...and the feelings just get stronger day by day! I am fortunate enough that I get to spend every (almost) waking moment with my little ones! Sometimes I might be begging for a break, but as soon as I am away from them for 5 minutes, I miss them dearly!

There is nothing better than the cuddles you get from your children - so close and tight...and more calming and relaxing than anything else in the world!

I love it when Ceili just looks at me and says "I love you Mommy" or "You're the best Mommy in the world!!" I love it when she grabs my face with her hand and pulls it closer to her so she can kiss my cheek...all on her own without any prompting! I love bedtime, when we lay in her bed, read 3 books that she picks out, say our prayers with her bear Parker, and lay there together, listening to her Mercy Me Lullaby CD. This is her best "thinking" time...one night, she asked me "Mommy, if God doesn't have wings, how does he fly? Because angels have wings but He doesn't?" Then, before I could answer, she said "Maybe He is just so big that he doesn't need wings!" All I could say was "I think you are exactly right baby girl!" I just love our "special" time we get to have when Keaton is napping...doing crafts, playing dress-up, doing puzzles, reading books, whatever SHE wants to do! And I love when we have our "girls" days and get pedicures together - she gets soooo excited and loves being pampered by the Nail salon!! I could write all day about what I love about that little girl, but I will leave that for another time! I just hope that as she gets older, she still loves to spend time with her Mommy!

And I love Keaton's big blue eyes and huge smile that just light up the darkest of rooms! I love when he just crawls over to me and gives me kisses. I love when he is playing with his toys and decides he wants to just cuddle with Mommy for a second...then back to playing it is! I love when he lets me just hold him...he is the best cuddler! I love his laugh when Ceili does something funny or when I have a funny reaction to something he does! I love when he says "Mama" - it took him 14 months to finally say it, but it was definitely worth the wait!! I love watching him explore and discover "his" world...and then looks at me to make sure I see him! I love that he is such a Mommy's boy...even if means that I never get to use the restroom by myself!! I love that he can spot me as I enter any room, no matter how large. And I love how excited he gets when he does see me - it just totally melts my heart every time! Before he was born, I never thought I could love my second child as much as my first...and somehow, it just happens!!

On Mother's Day this year, I just wanted to take time to reflect on how incredibly lucky I am to have my little ones and to have the opportunity to be a Mommy to them. I love being a Mommy, and while it is a 24/7 job...it is the best job in the world! I am so thankful that I was picked to be their Mommy...how lucky I am!

Thanks to my Mom for being such a great role model for me and showing me the type of Mom I want to be. I was fortunate to have such a wonderful Mom that really knew what I needed and when I needed it...whether it was a band-aid for my "invisible" boo-boos or a hug because I was grieving the loss of a friend. Any time I needed her, she was there for me, and she still is to this day. This is the type of Mom I want to be to my children...a Mom who is always there to play hide-and-seek, pretending not to see them, even though there are tiny feet sticking out from the covers and little giggles that I pretend to not hear! I want to be a Mom who nevers misses the opportunity to build a fort in the living room and have a "sleepover" in it, complete with movies and popcorn! And I want to be a Mom who takes the time to do tea parties, dress up and even digging in the dirt to look for worms!

Enough of my rambling...below is a picture of me with my kiddos on Mother's
Day. We have been battling mono at our house between the two of them, so we had Nana and Papaw over for breakfast and then spent the rest of the day at home, hanging out and planting some flowers and our new tree. It was a perfect Mother's Day, sick kids or not!